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Pain, A teacher, a catalyst with a purpose a build in alarm, a signal. A warning and a friend Knocking on the door For swimming upstream For stressing out for to long For distorted beliefs For not listening Pain, Valuable for change Destructing and destroying Shredding and heart breaking To purify and heal To dust of the diamond To flower and grow To make you bow and surrender, To let go and flow Pain, inevitable Not to be avoided Not to be ignored Not to be suppressed a powerful messenger To be listened to To welcome in when it arrives......

Your heart knows It knows the way It knows the road Over mountains and trough valleys. In bloom and through fall It knows and paves the path It guides and it leads It whispers in your ear Listen. To the whispering and guidance. It will lead you back from where you started To the place you’ve always been To the place you can call home. Listen And follow It knows....

I stare at the photo. For the first time I see something I have never seen before. For the first time I experience something I’ve never experienced. What I look at is not just a capture of a playful moment. What I experience is not like other experiences. It’s more and nothing. Strong, naked and pure. It is as if I have never seen this woman. But I know her. As I know everything else. A tear rolls down my cheek. I can’t stop looking. I am looking at a photo of what I believed to be me. At that......

I am for 3 weeks with a group of friends in Africa. A group of bright souls that feel like family, soul family. People that I have met all over the world. We play, we meditate and co-create. Being around these people makes my heart open up. I realized that my own little comfortable bubble of freedom, detachment and non commitment isn’t serving me anymore. I want to engage. Engage with people, projects, missions and the greater vision that is inside of me. I can spend the rest of my life playing, traveling, being in nature, working here and there......

A blog that I wrote 2 years ago.  _________ This is a letter to all trouble makers of my life, I have something to say. I want to thank you, for all the pains and struggles you have caused. For all the moments you made me angry and upset, For your behavior that frustrated me endlessly. For so long, I wanted you to be different. Or to be honest, I didn’t want you to exist in my life. But you simply did, no matter if I liked it or not. Resistance, waisted energy, struggles and frictions. It became clear when......

Your heart is not just your heart You can’t claim it, You can’t own it. Your heart is a like a poem. A piece of art A melody. Your heart knows everything But it doesn’t speak in words. It doesn’t give you a map It doesn’t ask you to become. It is inviting you to trust. It is encouraging you to be. It is asking you to love Above all, it is hinting you to listen. In silence. It won’t say it will be easy. It doesn’t promise that you’ll never make a mistake And it is not going to......

Pay attention to you. To the truer you. The you inside of you. The one gift. To you, Nothing to become You are. Open your eye Dust off the gold Shed layers Unblock the light Nothing you need. You have it all. Find you The truer you The One you always have been The One you always will be. The One you are. Pay attention. Till there is nothing left But you   ~ Roeleke        ...

The hunt The endless search Around the corner The famous green grass Consuming More, faster, greater Money as root Attention to cover up The hunger for being seen Thirsty for love The hunt for treasure Nothing matters And everything does Temporarily A game forgotten to play Seeking and searching For rules The how to’s In pain and misery Distorted and deluded The treasure Far away as close as it can get Seemingly loosing In fact always winning Judging the superficial Beautiful in it’s being Running away Still arriving The treasure Experienced in the present The future created now Existing Present......

There are no victims. Victims do not exist We have never been victims. We just pretend a falls sense of safety A powerless thought We think And pretend not to be responsible. for our lives for what happens to us. Afraid for our pain Afraid for our power Afraid to be loved Afraid to be responsible Responsible Response able Able to respond Owning our pains Owning our power Owning our life Owning everything that happens Nothing to claim Nothing to push away. It just is. As we just are. It IS because we ARE We have never been victims We......

In august 2017, Teri and I painted a portrait of Frida Kahlo on Cocles beach in Costa Rica. Mark van Welzenis made a mini film of it. POEM in the video Our life is like an empty canvas Pure, blanc and unwritten We can paint anything, we can create anything. Artists we are, Artist of life. Like Frida, Like me, Like you By following our highest excitements, No matter what it takes. We free ourselves, we liberate ourselves I am you, you are me, We are all ONE. Liberated and free   __________ A project of ShapeShifterArts Painted by Teri......

I am in bed, it is after midnight and the bright screen of the computer is painful to my eyes. I have a huge headache, a fever and an inflammatory (pulpitis) in my tooth what is pressuring a nerve. A hell of a pain! I just took a 600mg ibuprofen, what I never do, because this girl thinks that she can fix always everything with nature and natural products. I still do, but the pain was creeping up on me and killing me softly that I couldn’t even cry, while I so wanted to, because of the pain. Anyhow, that......

Your heart is not just your heart You can’t claim it, You can’t own it. Your heart is a like a poem. A piece of art A melody. Your heart knows everything But it doesn’t speak in words. It doesn’t give you a map It doesn’t ask you to become. It is inviting you to trust. It is encouraging you to be. It is asking you to love Above all, it is hinting you to listen. In silence. It won’t say it will be easy. It doesn’t promise that you’ll never make a mistake And it is not going to......

We are sitting in front of a little beach cabin in Costa Rica when I ask Mark if he wants to listen to some poems I had written. He looks up and smiles. “I would love to!” It is the first time I read a poem out loud and I feel a little vulnerable. I read two poems and than I read the poem called ‘Gaia’. When I finish, he is staring at me with a sparkle in his eyes. “I love it” It is silent for a little while and than he says: “I would love to make a......

Eventually everyone will be right, until than, let’s keep on messing up. It’s such an exhausting thought to think I have to be right. or to think that I AM right. or desire to be right. I am never right, I keep on messing up. And I am always right, even when I mess up. I make a mistake here, wasn’t so nice there. Sometimes ignorant, sometimes a little arrogant. Maybe it is not my intention, but it happens. Again, and again. But who cares. I don’t have to feel bad, I don’t have to doubt myself. I don’t have......

I’ve met the guy 5 years ago in San Diego. We talked briefly, all I remember that he was extremely positive and he talked about how wonderful and bright the day was.  Everyone knows him in San Diego. Check out this video of this inspiring and awake man! Dr. John Kitchin quit a medical career to pursue his passion: skating along the boardwalk of San Diego’s Pacific Beach. He calls himself “Slomo.”  ...

A canvas Empty A vision No colors yet Ready to paint Ready to color Color the day What do we desire Want do we desire it to feel like It’s our creation It’s us deciding Everything is possible All shapes and all forms Let’s make it amazing Let’s make it colorful It already is The joy of creating Creating our reality Even brighter than the vision Beyond our imagination Shining Fun And filled with love. Amazing as we are Just as we are Let’s paint The day Today ______________ With Teri Davis, Mark van Welzenis and a wonderful community here......

Michael Jackson, a legend and “King of pop”, a man that fascinates and inspires me, He inspires me with his art, his life story and the love he felt for humanity. There is so much said and told about this man. A man, I believe, was highly misunderstood, but what his millions of fans understood (and still understand) is his LOVE what is experienced through his music and dance moves. It was an honor to paint Michael Jackson with my friend and artist Teri Davis and to make a video of the process with Mark van Welzenis with Michael’s inspiring......

I see fire In your eyes, Fire inside my soul. In love. with you, nature, life With all Me Natural, Effortless In darkness, In light Love Transformation The force Changeless Birth place of all All that is All that exist All Shapes Forms Appearances Reflection of everything in everything I see fire In your eyes, I feel fire inside my soul. I am We are One Love    ...

Some days are different than others. Some days mark a before and an after. Days that change everything An extraordinary AHA moment An experience or rather clarity. A feeling, a sense Unexplainable, but so clear. Indescribable and mind blowing Not really knowing what happened But I just know Without a doubt Dissolving, disappearing, blending. Ease, love, bliss Oneness The one The experience of ‘reality’ has changed forever, What I used to believe is blown away. Life as I use to know it, is no more. An illusion, a dream. What I believed to be reality. I can’t function in the same......

I’m standing on a cliff. I am scared, I don’t want to jump and I do want to jump. It’s a yes, It’s a no. The fear I feel is uncomfortable. I’ve been so many times on a cliff. Not necessarily this particular cliff, but I’ve been here before. The place I wanted to be, but now that I am here all doubts and fears come up again. Right in my face. This is the moment. It’s now or not. I know more opportunities will come, but not this one. This one will pass. I know how I will feel......

 I lived together with my sister for a year in a nice apartment in the middle of city Arnhem, 2 years ago. My sister Maartje: A very successful business woman, a passionate hotel manager. She makes music and sings at weddings, parties, parks, cafe’s etc. She has almost every day a coffee/lunch/diner date with a friend or businesspartner and most weekends you’ll find her at concerts. Her agenda is always filled to the brim. Busy, busy, busy. She lived with her ex-boyfriend in Arnhem, but when they broke up I moved in. I was looking for a place to live,......

(Video: Click HD for better quality) Shapeshifter Arts is born. Here I am in the USA again, on another adventure. This adventure feels different than all other adventures I’ve experienced before. I feel so free, loved and in the moment. Everything what I imagined for the past years is all coming beautifully together, knowing it is just the beginning. I am traveling, I am excited about writing and finishing my book (probably this summer), I c0-create with wonderful people and I discover new ways of expressing myself. I always loved to paint, but I never took it to seriously. I......

Short movie: The Butterfly Circus An inspiring short movie with amazing life lessons.  You are what you believe you are. It doesn’t matter where you are coming from or where you are at. You can change TODAY. It starts with changing your thoughts and the willingness to conquer yourself. You are your only real enemy. Believe you can and you can. There is a beauty in everything no matter what your circumstances are. You only have to learn to see it, to be willing to ‘fight’ (yourself) for it, only than you will transform yourself into the butterfly you already......

The unknown, something that isn’t known. Do you want to know Do you want to know the unknown Would something change if you know What would you want to know What if you knew, what you now know. Would you know, if it is unknown What if you know everything What if you don’t know anything What if you never know anything What if you always know everything What if we could let go of anything we know So that we don’t even know that we don’t know. And know that we always know. Here, now, known.   – The......

  To Trust and Surrender, it seems so difficult sometimes, because our mind keeps us busy with all kinds of thoughts, specially if life takes us on some unexpected little side roads. When events in life go different than planned, the mind often starts to panic or worry. It wants to get back in control. By keeping our mind focussed on that what we would like to experience and by surrendering to the unexpected change in circumstances, our intuition and gut feeling tells us what actions to take to the best possible outcome. Trust and surrender are keys to let......

If you want to feel happy and at ease within a minute… take the time to count your blessings. Be grateful for anything and everyone in your life that you love. The little things and the big things. The feeling of being grateful is wonderful. Practice your gratefulness on a daily basis. Meaning; Stop for a few minutes everyday and become aware of all that you love and like about your life. When you ’practice’ this, you will discover how much there is to appreciate and to be grateful for. You’ll never run out of ’things’, simply be grateful for......

“This is my ‘plan A’, and if it doesn’t work out, than I have my ‘plan B”. This is split energy. You give your attention to plan A, but you also think about plan B, ‘just in case’. What you actually say, is that you do not for a 100% believe and trust plan A. There is resistance. This can be fear or doubt. The fear makes us create a plan B. So we are ‘save’. The question is: How much do you want plan A? If you believe in the bigger picture/vision of your plan A, and you give......

2016. I spend most of the year traveling, I went on insane trips and adventures, I met incredible people, but I also faced myself big time. Meaning: I was confronted with my fears, my insecurities… the shadow-side of me that I was ignoring. I didn’t want to see it, I didn’t want to face it, I didn’t want to FEEL it. Even though I had traveled so much in my life already, I never faced myself like I did in 2016. The shadow side. We all have one. The side of us we often refuse to see, because it is to......

Holy sizzle! It’s about time!! NOW. I mean NOW. It’s time to put myself out in the world, not only physically, because I am all over the place, but It’s time to share more of me… ideas, thoughts, writings and more. It’s time to step up the game. Ideas are shooting out of the ground like magical mushrooms. I can hardly hold myself back and yet I have been holding myself back for way to long. Why? Because I am so damn excited that it scares the hell out of me. I know what I want. I know what makes......

“You have been telling the people that this is the Eleventh Hour. Now you must go back and tell the people that this is The Hour. Here are the things that must be considered: Where are you living? What are you doing? What are your relationships? Are you in right relation? Where is your water? Know our garden. It is time to speak your Truth. Create your community. Be good to each other. And do not look outside yourself for the leader. This could be a good time! There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and......

Free will…..  it’s the best gift we will ever get. It’s an innate ability we all posses. With this ability we can choose anything we want. First we have to become aware of this power by acknowledging it and second, we have to know how it works in order to use it in our benefit. Free will, means FREE WILL, which means; free to choose what you want, how you want to feel and what you want to focus on. It’s up to you. How are you using the gift of free will? Are you using it against you or for......

“When I have that job, this relationship, house, business, etc..…  than everything will be all right. Only then will I be happy”. From this state of being, you can never get that job, relationship or that which you desire the most. It is always now. Tomorrow never comes, and neither does the time what we call future. It is always Now. It will always be now,.. this present moment. The subconscious mind can not differentiate between past, present or future, nor between a lie, fantasy or truth. If you can’t be happy in this moment, you’ll keep waiting your entire......

I am the movie star in my own movie. I make it a game and it goes like this.. Pretend that you step into a movie. A movie that’s about to start. A movie about you. “Once upon a time there was…”  and make up a story yourself. Make the story as enjoyable as you want it to be. ‘Act’ like the one who you like to be in the movie. Be aware of your behavior, your reaction to others and the situation. Observe your ‘movie  set’ in detail. Look around to see how perfectly the set up for your......

How often do we say? “I will try”. “I don’t know If I can do it, but I’ll try”. What does trying actually mean? What are you saying to yourself and others? “I want to do it, but I don’t think I can, so when I say I’ll try, I give myself the permission to ‘fail’ ”? “I know already that I’m not gonna make it, but with trying I’ll show that at least I did my best”? Trying is going in the direction with doubt, you are not sure. It is an excuse for your fear. Change saying: “I’ll......

Lovely parents, We want to say you something. First of all, we love you and we appreciate you for who you are. Mom and dad, you did your best to give us everything you thought what was best for us. You taught us what you’ve learned from your parents and from society to help and protect us as good as you can. The thing is… We think differently, we don’t feel really comfortable in the life you picture for us. We don’t fit in a society we don’t really understand. We see possibilities and believe in other things. We feel......

“I am going to die, at least my physical body, so I better have fun and live this life fully”. This thought can be very helpful. It can bring you back to alignment. It can help you to loosen up a bit in moments of overthinking and worrying. It can encourage you to do things what scares you to do. The last push in your back to take that leap of faith… To call that one person, to quite your job and go for that what you really love to do or to finally go on that trip you dream......

Do you remember the game. ‘I spy, I spy with my little eye… and it has the color red’? If you were playing that game with someone and you were asked that question; You looked around to find all red things what you did not see yet… and guess what, you saw ALL red things in the room. The color red probably doesn’t have much meaning to you. What if you change the subject to that what does have a meaning for you. It is you deciding where you focus on. What if you only pay attention to what you......

I’m back home!! WHAT? Yes! Back in the Netherlands, for a little while. I had to leave the states because of my visa and I didn’t feel like going somewhere else, even though I tried hard to find a place what felt good to go to next, but it didn’t feel right. I won’t be long in the Netherlands. I want to go back to the states this summer. I am thinking about August. In the Netherlands I am going to work on my new website, what will be soon released and I am focusing on writing, in the meanwhile......

An update. It’s been a while I posted my last blog. I am still in Boulder. I love this place. For the last 3 weeks, I’ve stayed with a family with 2 wonderful children, a girl (1) and boy (3). Their father left for 3 weeks for a trip to the North Pole. I helped my host, Maria, out with the children and things in the house. I had my own bed and bathroom and was able to use one of their cars. Also they let me use their professional video camera, were I had a lot of fun with.......

I’m on my way to Boulder, Colorado. Yes I am! I really enjoyed Maui. The nature, the climate and landscape diversity, the flowers, the palm trees, the beaches, the ocean (wildlife), the energy of the island and much more..  So much to see, to feel and to discover. The last days we went for some hikes. We found some forests, caves and we walked into the Haleakala crater. It’s almost to much to take it all in. Even tough Maui is amazing and 2,5 weeks is way to short to see and do everything, I felt like leaving. I am......

I posted in my recent blog post the picture: “So the adventure begins”… It did!  Since I left it is quite an adventure. What a beautiful Island is Maui, Hawaii. I stepped into paradise. Sun, palmtrees, beautiful beaches, flowers, whales jumping out of the water all around. The first days I could cry almost every hour of graditude and love I felt for being alive and for being here by sensing all of the beauty. The retreat I was attending of Benthinho Massaro started the second day, with a group of 170 awake human beings deepening ourselves. The sessions were......

  I’m in Maui, Hawaii, after 4 flights. Amsterdam-Londen- Los Angeles –San Fransico – Maui. I like to fly. There are not many places were random people are together , reading, sleeping, being quiet and/or excited to go to the next destination. I love to be high up in the sky above the clouds. I’m staring out the window. The sun is always shining and there is so much space. It makes me feel still inside and clear. Nothing to say, just being with all those human beings around me I’ve never seen or met before. Life is simple above......

I like to share this poem a special friend wrote. I’ve met her one week ago in Spain, feels like a lifetime. Thank you Chiara for the beautiful night we had together. I’ll take care of the part you left me. You, Me, She – the same. Grateful!   We are two. Sitting on a wooden bench. Only a handful of houses around us. All around is nature. Sierra Nevada with its white hair is watching us. Probably laughing of us, teasing. I’m almost certain. Four crossed legs warmed by a brown checkered blanket and too many blue eyes in so......

The journey started long before I made the decision to quit my job, sell my stuff and to just GO. I’m more than ready for this step, even though I don’t know what ‘being ready’ really means. There is ‘something’ whispering in my ear. ‘It’ says; ‘trust, let go and relax’. That energy makes me fly high. Uplifting. A feeling of joy, clarity and inspiration. The feeling, I believe, we suppose to feel all the time. It makes us happy and creative. Since 3 January 2016, the decision-making day, I feel like walking on mountaintops most of the time, with......

On February 28th 2016 I  will leave The Netherlands. I will travel with everything I have left by then; a backpack with some clothes, a laptop and my camera.  I’ve never been so sure as I am now about my new plans. The first weekend of this year, I went to a retreat. It was filled with meditations, dance, ecstatic energy and beautiful people. Inspiration flew through my body. I grabbed a pen and started to write. Within a few minutes it was written down… a plan, with a decision which I apparently had made already without being aware of......

Ik zit in de Openbare bibliotheek van Amsterdam. Op de 7e verdieping. Boven de verdiepingen met duizenden boeken en films, verhalen.. van nu en van vroeger, over het verleden, heden en de toekomst. Studerende, lezende en werkende mensen overal. Ik zit in de ruimte waar mensen eten, koffie drinken en met elkaar kletsen. Er staat een cappuccino met honing voor mijn neus en heb het boek, dat ik zojuist intuïtief op de afdeling filosofie uit het schap gepakt heb, op mijn schoot liggen. Mijn oog viel erop. Een boek van J. Krisnamurti. Ik lees een stukje over alleen zijn. Ik......

Mijn vader en ik zitten lekker buiten in het zonnetje, pratend en genietend van de jonge blaadjes, het koolmeesje die in en uit zijn huisje vliegt en de vlinder die voorbij fladdert. Camino herinneringen komen terug. “Tjonge wat was het toch een mooie tijd he?” Vorig jaar rond deze tijd, een week voor vertrek, waren we ons aan het voorbereiden op de wandeltocht de “Camino de Santiago. We praten over alle mooie dingen die we beleefde samen, de ontmoetingen, de plekken, de uitdagingen, de grensverleggende ‘weer en wind’ omstandigheden en de blaren. Voor het eerst sinds de camino zitten we......